What's my point? That's a phenomenal question. I think my point was to see if anyone else out there shared my existential state. Now, of course I knew someone did, but there's really nothing like a good ol' confirmation from the other.
My experience is similar to yours. LLMs are helpful but the code that I write directly, from my own thinking, fits better and feels more satisfying.
Craftsmanship brings joy different from the one of productivity.
Not sure if because age, or because I use Ruby, a beautiful, terse language, but I like the process.
Often I close Cursor and fire up SublimeText for a simpler, quieter process.