You have willfully blinded yourself to opportunities that if taken to heart could have prevented yourself a world of suffering.

You mistake the environment you are in, and where it is going, which will threaten your ability to survive at some point as you are helplessly dependent on an environment that will cease to exist in the near future.

This was neither toxic, nor arrogant, just the facts and advice provided in good will and faith, something that is vanishing along with tolerance, and those facts should frighten you because they have detrimental outcomes as a consequence for you.

You didn't want to hear it because of indoctrination, and an inability to to comprehend. As a result, you have only yourself to blame for the choices you've made and what predictably comes next. Struggle and frustration.

Those that can't help themselves won't be helped by others. Those that cannot learn and adapt doom themselves by their own choices. Darwin's fitness.

A time is coming where the blind in their unpredictable and crazy behavior may be given a final mercy that can't be taken back, for the good of all because these people are a detriment to all if left alone. Historically, this is well known and it wasn't until modern times that we had the resources to care for such illness in seeming perpetuity.

Until things change, you've made it clear the only path for you is to struggle on needlessly, without any help, and let it distort you in a spiral of madness until you succumb to your self-fulfilling prophecy and break moreso than you already have.

Slapping goodwill and advice down falsely believing its toxic, when in fact its just unpleasant/harsh truths you weren't strong enough or willing to face speaks greatly to the character and outcomes you will face.

There are people who happen to know more than you do, about a great many things; because you were given a poor foundation purposefully. Its not arrogance to want to give people the opportunities that an education they should have been given as a child provides. The alternative is delusional adult children running amok destroying the pillars of their own survival.

You tread forward down the path those malevolent people laid for you, deceived, and never straying; biting any hand that offers help. Its sad because its preventable and needless.

I'll pray you revisit this when you get tired of the madness you put yourself through.